My son has just turned 3yo and he gets his free preschool hours soon. I haven't put his name down anywhere as I really don't want to leave him with anyone other than close family. I'm scared something terrible will happen and I won't be there for him e.g. He'll die and I won't be there to hold him. Sounds ridiculous, eh?
But I have held a 4 month old as they died after a horrific accident and his parents were dead next to him. And when I was on holiday with family (probably aged around 8 years old) I watched my nan try and save a little girl who was choking to death, dipping in and out of consciousness, vomiting blood. My nan did save her life but when we left for home no-one knew if she was ever going to recover fully. What I'm trying to say is that what I've experienced had scarred me so much I'm petrified something will happen to my DC and I feel so powerless, I just want to keep them close. I know that isn't possible and isn't fair on them but what on earth can I do? I'm aware that, rationally, they have to go to school but how do I get them there without cracking up? BTW they (both DS's) are confident and have no separation issues, i think they enjoy the freedom away from mummy! Advice would be appreciated, thank you xxxxx