Well, first of all I am not American, nor am I a mum. I am male. I am not Canadian either. Meh.
However I have two sisters who might as well be my children, age difference 16 and 20 - fully blood related.
I was my mum's first when she was 21. We actually share the same birthday. I'm sure she thought, 'oh, what a great birthday gift'....
But 41 years later..... well, i don't know.... She still loves me and all that, even though I am quite the * *p
What brought me here are my problems. I googled 'alcoholism forums' .... I am not a mum, and never will be, gambling too is an issue, I'm either dead broke or filthy rich. Depends on which side the coin lands.
Lately, the coin has landed on the wrong side.... I have thought of, you know, just leaving life to put it relatively nicely.... but damnit, my sisters. I love them, they love me. I don't see them very often as they live in a city, I live in a lil' town.
I can tell they think of me as their big bro.... They know so much about me I don't even.... like at Christmas they gave me a bracelet siginifying the sports team I love. A rubiks cube, I think I mentioned it once to them (still not been able to solve it, but learning),
I don't wan't to leave my sisters, nor my mom and dad....