What can I do? I’m sad - I have an amazing life to someone who can look from the outside (F27). I have a really good job that I enjoy, and an awesome partner (M28), but for the last 6-8 months I’ve been really upfront and open that I want a baby. We are getting married in September this year - and my partner would’ve waited another 3 years for a baby after having chats, but he has taken me into consideration and said he will be happy to try once we’re married. I truly appreciate that - he’s brought his timeline forward for me. But in the meantime - I am drinking heavily to ‘pass the time’. Any opportunity I get from work when colleagues suggest it - I’m at the pub. Much to the sadness of my amazing partner. I cannot help it - I try to stay home, each week I start a fresh and say I’m not drinking, but all I want is the mother life and so there’s ‘nothing to do’ until then. I worry I’m using alcohol as a clutch, which I know can be a terrible path. What can I do between now and then to stop drinking so much and drive my partner away? What can we do together to create that routine we can enjoy? Please don’t be too harsh, I’ve come here as a last resort after months of battling with my (apparent severe drinking and) mental health. I need ideas to keep my relationship as amazing as it was before I became bogged down with the longing to be a mum, and thus turning to alcohol.