Hi. I'm new but I really need some advice from those of you that have lost your best friend.
I'm socially awkward and find it hard making friends. I guess its because I've been used too many times wnd struggle to put in boundaries.
Today my best friend decided that I am no longer worth her time. She's always been extremely judgemental and likes to think she's better than everyone else, and i just overlooked it as was so grateful to have what I thought was a great friend. She seemed to thrive when others suffered misfortune and would continually tell me what I should be doing.
Her and her children stayed for a long weekend in the summer. It was absolutely awful. She was extremely lazy and her parenting was awful. Her youngest is a spiteful child who punched and kicked my son, yet somehow it ended up being my sons fault. She's constantly belittled my partner, her husband actually cheated on her but its my partner who is the waste of space. She is jealous of anyone who she deems is doing better than her. After her recent behaviour towards me I asked her what was wrong, she became aggressive towards me, invalidated my feelings and told me she didn't have time for me and my drama. I told her exactly what I thought of her and felt better for doing so. I now feel really sad about the whole situation. I know she is toxic and I'm better off without her but she was the only person other than my partner who i spoke to and now I'm just frightened of never having another friend.