Hello so I'm new to all this but need let off a bit of steam as don't no many people to talk to and if I do they run to my DH. Anyway me and my Hubby has argument I ended up going to police due to my mum telling me to as she hates him so I listend and told them what she told me to any way he on bail and not alowed near me or kids so obviously kids are missing him got to point of kids over hearing some of what me and my Mum said and they ran school and told :( so makes it look worse any way I took my statement back my head was in bad place I wasn't taking my medication I no it's no excuse any way I only listen to my Mum so I can see my eldest daughter who she always stops me seeing so everything was to much for me obviously my husband has messaged saying he loves me and this and that but I can't help but push him away even more it's all I ever have done :( why am I like this? Feel like I don't deserve him or the kids am such bad personality and Mum I hate my self just rant or advice I don't no ;( needed get off my chest suppose