I am massively struggling with RSD at the moment and I feel like it is ruining my life. I’m mid 40s, perimenopausal and neurodivergent, possibly autistic, definitely ADHD. I am not formally disgnosed but have two autistic children (both diagnosed) and one of them has has OCD so I’ve done my fair share of assessments and spoken to clinical pyschcologists, one of which agreed with me that I was likely autistic at a consult for one of my children, and I’ve also done courses on autism and read and listen to everything possible so I’m pretty sure. It explains so much about my life and like many I know I have masked heavily through childhood and early adulthood to the point
I really don’t know who I am anymore.
Anyway, perimenopause has hit me hard and I am all over the place and just can’t seem to get it together at all. I
do two jobs and I’m managing the kids which is intense and a lot everyday with one who finds school really challenging and on part time timetable and even then it’s a struggle to attend and one whose OCD at home means I have to do a lot of support and extra ‘stuff’.
Every single time someone says anything to me in an even remotely negative way, it absolutely destroys me. Like full on uncontrollable crying, feel like the worst human alive, question everything about myself etc. I’ve read and listened to everything I can find on RSD and I recognise this is what it is but I can’t stop my response. I’ve had quite a few things happen at work that have floored me and I’m almost at the point of quitting just to stop the feeling.
At home, even the smallest negative reaction (even just in tone or body language) and I melt down. I just can’t handle it.
What can I do? Has anyone found a way? I’m starting to think i need professional help.