I now have officially been diagnosed with Autism and ADHD. The autism wasn't a surprise at all, as soon as I started looking into autism I was sure that was me, so many pieces fit and it seemed to make sense. The ADHD was a bit surprising, that wasn't something I'd really looked into and after my assessment I started reading more into it and realised that all the symptoms were just things I'd thought were personal flaws or me being too "stupid" too "day dreamy" etc.
I just don't really know how to feel about it all. I cried during the assessment, some of the questions kind of probed into things I don't tend to uncover and the very lovely assessors also said some nice things to me which I didn't expect to react to but did have me in tears (and I'm not usually someone who cries, I tend to keep my emotions very buried)
I have just kind of been left feeling... nothing really. I read about the assessments beforehand and many people mentioned feeling a sense of relief or finally understanding themselves... I just feel absolutely nothing.
Did anybody else feel like this after the assessment? I am glad that I have the diagnosis as I can ask for reasonable adjustments if I ever want to or change jobs, but it's not really relevant now as I work for a very small business who basically let me do what I want how/when I want as long as the work is done so any adjustments have already been made.
Is there something that I'm missing? Will the feelings come to me? I don't know what I expected but I know it wasn't too feel absolutely nothing.