Spinning out

[dontwannadothis]

So I was diagnosed with bipolar 18 years ago when I was 18, for the most part I've accepted the diagnosis- it's been a hard slog getting medication right and I've tried almost every available option. My current meds work for the most part- and by that I mean I'm not suicidal but I'm also not a steady middle ground all of the time.
A few years ago ADHD and autism started getting thrown around, I was always under the impression that it was an additional diagnosis to bipolar.
I had my ADHD on Thursday and they've said it's definitely ADHD, and most likely the bipolar diagnosis is wrong. I'm still waiting for the autism assessment.
Now part of me thinks I should be glad that I've found what's "wrong" with me.... However I'm spinning out massively 😅 I almost feel like my entire life has been a lie which I know sounds dramatic but I'm really struggling with this...
Has anyone been through simi
lar?

I've heard of this, people being misdiagnosed with bipolar when it's adhd. Adhd wasn't as widely recognised before so it's a positive thing as you can get more effective meds. I was late diagnosed with adhd so can sort of relate to the wish I'd known feeling. I think it's an adjustment- it's also about thinking about who you want to share the diagnosis with, how, when, as that is your choice and helps I think in the long run - but it may be that you want to sit with it and reflect on it for a while too and that's also fine!