The dc get school holidays today, and dh finishes work which means that there’s just enough time before Christmas to slide into chaos and dysregulation.
I’m hosting. It’s not so much that there’s a lot to do. It’s just that marshalling the effort for task initiation, and keeping things on track gets so much harder when there are people around. If I can get a rhythm going, the inertia keeps me moving. But every interruption means I have to try and re direct my energy, and re start.
Before I was diagnosed, I would have just been irritable and cranky and felt bad about being a moody cow, But now it feels worse because I’m not masking as easily, and I’m much more aware when I’m dysregulated than I used to be (is self masking a thing?)
Anyone else struggling?