For context, I got a new manager this year and she's been managing me for six months. She has very high expectations and is from a very corporate background. I'm dyspraxic and ADHD (not medicated at the moment and can't be for the time being.)
I do work in a comms role, really like writing BUT due to my issues I do lack attention to detail at times. I've put in checks to try and help with this - use grammarly and listen to my work out-loud.
I just had my mid-year PDR and it wasn't very positive. One issue is that I'm delivering the majority of things, but that the quality/standard isn't high enough.
I don't have typos everywhere or anything like that, but it's more things like adhering to the style guide consistently. I know this is something I can hopefully improve on with practice, but where I'm more concerned is she wants my goal to be to have my blogs and any other writing have close to no edits. She's not talking just grammar here but in terms of the actual content not having any/many suggested changes.
I'm just not sure this is possible. She almost always revises things - sometimes quite heavily. My previous manager would suggest tweaks now and again, but not these heavy revisions. And I feel like some of these are just a matter of opinion, so I'm worried it's an impossible objective.
Likewise, with the blogs, we have editors but she says they're too busy to spend too much time editing my work. My last blog had a couple of comments to look at, but nothing extreme. I'm worried I'm going to fail by default.
Problem is I agreed to these objectives during the conversation, but now I'm wondering if I've shot myself in the foot completely by agreeing. I felt a little vulnerable during the conversation - I'm suffering massively with my mental health and this does impact on my productivity and confidence.
I do think I probably need to look for a new job, but won't be mentally fit to until my depressive episode improves.
I keep also questioning whether comms is for me as no matter what I do (I've just spent three hours checking a piece of writing for errors!) there are always a few little things. The thing is I am a good writer (or so I've been told), plus a lot of what I write gets a lot of views, but this holds me back.
I've got an English degree from a top uni, but I think they were a lot more interested in the content, and would let the odd stylistic error slip.
Is there anything I can do or do I just have to accept I won't be able to reach these? Are there any accommodations that could help with the above issue, or should I speak to her and see if we can tweak them somehow.
No idea what I can do but feeling helpless and like I'm going to wind up without a job ðŸ˜