Am I autistic ?????

[Marsh212]

Hi everyone , this might be a long one
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I'm a 30 yr old female, married with a child. Up to this point I havnt really questioned ' the way I am ' but I am now.

To meet me you wouldn't necessarily think I have had any problems in my life or reasons as to why I suffer high social anxiety and depression. My up bringing was fantastic no problems there but from a social point of view I have always been socially hidden.

The more I think about it the more I feel I may be mildly autistic , non stereotypical as I feel this would explain why I am the way I am .

The traits I display are ;

Socially anxious - I hate large groups especially if people are un beknown to me. I would much rather be at home on my own , in my own space. Don't get me wrong I can be social but on my own terms in environments that I feel comfortable with

Highly empathic - overly in fact. My job makes sure I am this way. I feel over stimulated alot of the time

Routine - my routines are my routines and if my routine isn't followed ( by my husband !) I get very stressed. I do have some OCD but not excessive more just doors locking and straighteners etc but not cleaning

Loud noises - don't like them at all. Hate loud music . Textures I'm fine with

Ralationshops - I have some friends but that's it , I don't have close friends or a best friend.

Traits I don't display ;

Eye contact - I can sometimes be off with this but not really

Others people emotions - I am very I. Tune with other people . Overly In fact . I am a people pleasure and I get on with everyone . and I get very anxious if I feel I can't read them very well

Love - I am married with a child but sometimes I am not very affectionate and if I am it's on my terms . My husband is very affectionate and this can make about uncomfortable some times.

I could go on but generally I am starting to feel as though I am completely over stimulated all the time . I have no time for myself and this is what I want . I like to be on my own but this is hard with a child and a husband.

Anyway , I wanted to put myself out there for some thoughts . I am wondering whether I might benefit from an assessment?

If you got this far , thanks for reading 🤣

Happy to answer questions

TIA

I am wondering whether I might benefit from an assessment?

If you think you might be autistic, an assessment is the only way to proceed.

Probably

A lot of these traits sound like me

It sounds possible, but some of what you describe also sounds like Highly Sensitive Person syndrome which is something I struggle with myself, alongside being fairly sure I'm autistic. Apparently sometimes the two go hand in hand. Might be worth researching it if you haven't already.

You sound like me. I have scored high in every ASD test but haven't been assessed. I mask very well and I mirror a lot. My sound sensitivity and touch sensitivity is crazy. I don't have friends. I've never had friends. I don't know how to build or maintain a friendship. Saying that I do have ADHD which I was recently fully assessed for after a 2+y anxious wait. Without a doubt! It was a relief to finally understand myself a little better. But this assessment did not address all the things you mentioned and more. This side I hide.
I did another test this morning. I can't remember the name of the form but it may be worth you filling this in to see what ir suggests. Look on my pic for the website.
Good luck. You have nothing to lose for enquiring. A lifetime of secret struggles may finally make sense.

Sorry the pic wasn't clear. Here's another try.

Maybe. Maybe not. Even GPs and MH professionals can’t answer that. You need to see a specialist who’s trained to diagnose autism. They’ll probably need to interview you face to face for a few hours to give you an answer.