I’ve heard of the moon thing, but mainly in sitcoms, but I don’t believe it has a noticeable effect tbh. I rarely notice the moon in the sky, largely because where I live it’s mainly cloudy 😂 as for the idea people sleep worse from the light of the moon, I can only really see an issue in winter, because summer it’s only actually dark like 12am-2am, the rest of the time it’s varying levels of light, so there should be a summer/winter thing too.
as for the op topic on none moon related things. I get this a lot, sometimes all the time, sometimes everyday, and then less variations.
i feel like I’m doing nothing worthwhile, like everyone has jobs, or kids, or lives alone, or a partner, or insert any other thing you want, and I’m just flumping around doing very little, or getting upset or annoyed over anything or nothing.
it also doesn’t help looking at other autistics, ie the ones who have jobs, whether full time or part time or whatever, have kids, or a partner, can live independently, or have a specialty. Or even just a useful special interest that they can use to do something. My special interests are all absolutely fucking random, often expensive, rarely useful and there is rarely any benefit to me or others.
I have absolutely no consistency in the vast majority of things. The only consistent thing I have is my interest in dogs (mainly in a having a dog, or wanting a dog 😬😂). Luckily my mind gets very overwhelmed at the thought of having many dogs (even though it wants lots of dogs) and parents are sensible and would never allow it. Currently we have 1 dog, but picking up another Monday (who will (hopefully) be an assistance dog, which I am really hoping will help me, I really think it will).
and even when I have very frustrated I wanna do something worthwhile thoughts, there is never anything I want to do, there’s nothing I want to do really, bar petting my dog/s, sometimes talking to people I like and eating some crisps. I’ve never had any particular goals, I’ve had many fantasy goals but none have ever been realised really, they chop and change, nothing really lasts very long. And one of the big things is my massive lack of work ethic 😂 (ADHD), I have no interest or ability to do things I don’t see the point in (unless I want to get something or impress someone in a way that I hope makes them see I’m worthwhile 😂), and even things I want to do, I often don’t see the point, or can never quite get round to it, or I start it have all these grand ideas and then reality kicks in and I’m like fuck it canna be assed 😂 also add in a lot of pressure (whether real or imagined) and I just can’t cope with it.
im very much a, what the fuck is the point of that, person. Which I know is not great tbh. I’m not sure helps my mood a lot of the time though.