Medication

[Pugdays]

I've spent 30 years trying every medication possible for depression
I either can't cope with the side effects
Or they make me feel even more detached than I already do
Plus I can literally feel it working about 4 hours after taking it ,it just zombies me ..
Is this an autism thing and I just need to accept it's how I am ,or have I just not found the right medication for my depression yet
My depression and anxiety is so bad at the moment,I've done an e constant to the doctor to ask to try a different antidepressant,but last time I was told there's nothing left to try .
Is this just autism then ..I just don't know as I'm very recently diagnosed.

Hi @Pugdays

I’m recently diagnosed too so hard to say for sure and have also been on my fair share of meds. Tiredness and mood related issues do seem to be an autism thing from what I gather.

How do you feel about the diagnosis? Have you had any support? I’ve started reading a bit about it and I’m going to have some therapy as I feel like I’d like some help to get my head around it and work out how to move forward. Just wanted to reply to say I could relate, hope you’re doing better.

I so appreciate the reply rainbow
The e consultant was over a week ago ,and no doctor replied,no one got InTouch .
So I guess it's the same as last time , nothing left to try .
I'm trying to track what is causing my drop in moods ,and I've noticed it has come on around 3 pm some days as it starts to get dark
Once it gets to 5 pm and it's proper dark ,I'm ready for bed and have to fight the urges to sleep..I'm taking d3 ,but it's not helping.
I don't actually feel anything about the diagnosis,no family of my own to discuss it with really ,no siblings or parents,just children,and in-laws who I'm terrified will find out .
I've had lots of talking space sessions in the past through NHS ,but they knew nothing about autism,and kept telling me I definitely didn't have it ,as I've got to 50 and surely..if I had it , someone would of noticed.
How are you finding things rainbow

Hi @Pugdays I wonder if it’s worth sending another message to your GP to say what you have said here about the pattern of mood change. I’ve experienced that too and it might be indicative of something else being a bit out of balance somewhere?

I was also told there was nothing wrong with me for a long time, that I was just ‘anxious’ so it is strange to realise your brain was working differently all that time. I’m reading ‘women with autism’ by Claire Jack which has been quite helpful. It has exercises in it to help you reflect on how you got here and what you want to do moving forward.

Thanks rainbow
Funny enough,the doctor did ring this morning,and I was able to fully explain how my moods are ,and she said that is definitely not depression.
She said women with autism do have fluctuations in moods and she thinks that is what I have been describing.
I have a lot of books about autism,I just can't face reading them .
I think I probably need to start finding out a bit more

I might have a look on Amazon for the book you mentioned x