I have known since I was a child I had something wrong with me I guess. I put it out of my mind as I didn’t want to appear differently. I was a difficult child to say the least and have struggled to gain any control over my emotions, being told my personality has always been Jekyll and Hyde since I was 4/5. I was obsessive as a child and would mimic everything others did right down to accents. I’ve struggled with friendships and relationships and even holding down jobs and college. I flit from one thing to another especially with my self confidence issues. I remember the types of pains I would get in my head and the visions of that static on a tv I would get when my head was hurting but I never told my parents because I was so scared about what was wrong with me and being labelled dramatic. I don’t have a good relationship with my parents and my child hood wasn’t exactly a good one in many aspects but I’ve always shrugged it off as it was what it was. Having children with additional needs has left me questioning myself and also how I struggle to keep on top of the housework, the lack of sleep and the fact i don’t really sleep due to issues from my childhood, not being able to stay on top of everything despite staying at home. I feel overwhelmed by things that seem so easy for everyone else