Sharing diagnosis

[ihearsnow]

I was diagnosed nearly four yrs ago as autistic. I've told one person, and we've never mentioned it again. There would be benefits to telling people at work in my team and ther have been definite times where it would be helpful for them to know to be able to open conversations to understand better why I do certain things etc
But despite the fact I feel very positive about autism, I've had such bad experiences with people who don't understand. I sought a diagnosis after a colleague tried to get my fired for being "one of those Asperger's". I'm surrounded by people who either think "we're all on the spectrum" or just don't understand but are likely to think less iof me, my capability. I'm scared that anything I do from then will be blamed on autism and not fit for job etc

I'd love to hear experiences.
I work in a caring profession!

I guess the reason it's more relevant now is I have needed help this week and it's exceptionally hard to explain why I can't cope without the context of autism. Had a what I guess you'd call shut down at work. Literally couldn't talk, think, nothing. I bounce back but I know I'm on the edge and I don't have the support behind me to be able to be on the edge or take time off or break down. It's frustrating because well if you thought I was neurotypical (probably no one thinks that but I think they just reckon I'm a freak or worse! That I mean the weird facial expressions I don't understand or know I'm doing)
But if you thought or assumed i was neurotypical then I'm being pathetic. It's not objectively pathetic, it's a LOT I have on but I'm capable and should be coping.

Anyone?

Is it just me? On the edge

Hi, I didn't want to leave you unanswered. My situation is different in that I found out I was autistic not long before I left work to become a carer for my also autistic child. I onyl disclose to safe people or people who need to know but its an 'open' secret if that makes sense- I am not hiding it, but I don't tell people I have a diagnosis unless it is relavant or comes up in conversation. In a work environment I think I would disclose it if it was affecting my work in a way that reasonable adaptations could help. I hope you're feeling a little better today.