Meltdowns

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hi

i had a bad (but thankfully short ish) meltdown in public Saturday morning (I am autism etc and my meltdowns are still lying on the floor screaming and crying)

it devastated me 😢 cos it was with people I know and I had to have a lot of encouragement to go back to my activity the following day

do you guys have an issue where you feel fragile for a few days after?

I always say I am most at risk of a meltdown in the days after I have one but I did feel better this afternoon (I worked from home today) and think I was getting better but then my activity was cancelled this evening and I could no go to my back up activity cos of Saturdays meltdown

i got my own self really overwhelmed by the situation this evening and another meltdown

I am kind of sick of it cos they make me so much more autistic where I lose my words etc and I thinking maybe of contacting the drs but what can they do to helps (even getting signed off work for couple of weeks might helps actually cos work pressure is probably no helps right now)

not sure why I posting to be honest I just want people who have been there cos everyone very kind saying they understand but no sure anyone really gets the shame etc that I am going through I just want to function normally

It sounds like your anxiety is particularly high right now so it would be worth a trip to the gp and maybe some time off work. I shut down rather than melt down and it takes me a few days to get back to my normal. I do take beta blockers when I need them and they really do help me.

thanks you for replying 🙂

I am no sure I would describe being anxious… although I guess I would be extremely anxious at thinking of having another meltdown like that in public (today my boss ended up lying on the floor with me 🙄) which is probably a vicious cycle right now cos you worry so much about having a meltdown it then does happen 🤦

I will see if I can make drs apt tomorrow it been years since I been and they have never been very good but I do need SOME helps now

My meltdowns are different but what you’re describing sounds so similar to how I experience migraines that I had to read your op twice to be sure you hadn’t had one. But it’s so similar in terms of the loss of control, inability to communicate and strange disconnected feeling for days afterwards like another could hit at any time. People sympathise because they think it’s painful (it is) but it’s the sensation of having a brain that glitches and has to be rebooted that’s the worst of it. And the awful vulnerability that comes with being unmasked.

I was going to delete this because I’m doing that thing of relating to your experience and sharing mine (which I’m trying to be more mindful about) but then I started google migraines, asd, neurology and it’s a rabbit hole of its own.

Are you starting to feel a bit stronger now? And was the doctor any help? Anything you can do to ease the pressure and stress is probably wise right now.

Ah please no delete I just glad to have peoples that understands 🙂

I am much better and been gym and done same class tonight and made it through no issues so proud of me 🙌

I have no managed to contact the drs yet I have a real fear of them and do no go for years (it is mega stressful experience for me cos they never know me)

I will maybe do an online thing over weekend asking for sometime off and what they think
I do no think I suffer from migraines it is definitely an autistic meltdown they have no changed since I was about 5 so it is devastating to be nearly 40 and throwing youself on the floor screaming and crying and hitting you head (all with my ear defenders on lol)

I am definitely feeling 100% better thanks you 🙂

I am very lucky to have supportive friends at my activities (where this happened) and everyone is much nice and understanding to me for the first time in my life I feel like I belong