I can’t think of things to say ,it’s like having strangers walking in and out of my house
I feel awkward around them ,even more so when they bring home their boyfriend/ girlfriend,which is now every night ,
they think I’m in a mood when I’m not
if I’ve not got a smile planted on my face ,then I’m clearly in a mood .
I can no more think of things to say to them ,than I can the woman behind me in the Starbucks que .
this is really distressing me ,because I was a hands on mum ,I did everything for them ,and didn’t work ,so I could be here for them…but also 2 had autism and never managed to go to school ,so I had to be home for education.
im researching frequently medication for autism for me ,not my kids obviously…but I’m not depressed,and I have meds for anxiety….what can I do ..
I find myself hiding in my room so I don’t have to say hello ,
after hello how are u ,I can’t think of anything else to say
there’s only so many times I can ask ,did u have a good night ,how is work ,how is uni …then it’s done and awkward