Is my view of the world 'normal?'

[JamSandle]

I strongly suspect I have autism but have not pursued a diagnosis. I plan to this year.

Since I've been a child I've suffered with extreme anxiety. I find the world a scary place. I've been scared of being alone, scared of making friends, scared of change, scared of things staying the same. I've pushed myself out of my comfort zone in some big ways but in my mid 30s I'm now back at home with my family and I dont want to be anywhere else.

I feel like I'd have been happy staying 12 forever and being my parents child. I like living with my family in my family home. But im aware I 'should' want to move out and be a proper adult following proper adult milestones.

I know people around me may find it strange. But I just feel safe and at home with my family. I've travelled the world, I have lived elsewhere, but this is the only place I want to be.

Is this level of fear and wanting to stay the same 'normal' for people with autism?

Whenever I leave home even for a little while I say goodbye to my room, my plants and I feel really sad. It takes me a long time to settle somewhere new. I've always been scared of school trios and sleepovers too. Anything without my family.

I find the way society works really weird sometimes. Like why would we want to spend time anywhere else but with our loved ones?

I feel exactly the same way @JamSandle . I find the world a scary and overwhelming place and always have.

Late diagnosis here in 2018. We could be one and the same.

I went to boarding school aged 10 and I don’t think I ever got over it.

Definitely, seek assessment.

Sounds about right to me. Let's claim this as normal, and reasonable as well as the adventurous types.

And sounds very autistic.

Omg dolly. What a nightmare for an autie. I feel ill at the thought.

Oh and I plan on being available for my autistic children to come and live at home again after they've been away.

Yep. Mind blowing!!!