I suspect I've had mild dyspraxia my whole life long, and I'm now at the point where I desperately want someone to tell me if that's true, because my confidence is at an all-time low, and I don't think I can forgive myself otherwise.
All of my research leads back to paying £1k for a private assessment. But what if I'm told I'm not dyspraxic after all? I saw comments on another thread of, well, at least you can rule out something, but if I'm not dyspraxic, there's no explanation for why my coordination and spatial awareness are so bad. (I can't drive, I'm clumsy, I can't catch a ball or kick a ball, and I've sprained my ankle from falling over my own feet.) A label would help me forgive myself and be a huge relief. No label would mean I'm just a bit shit, generally. Apart from the cost, I'm worried paying for an assessment would potentially make my mental health worse, not better.
I wish I'd been tested as a child. But my parents don't believe in neurodiversity, and my PE teachers just hated me, so it was never going to happen.
Looking for some advice. Have you sought a diagnosis as an adult? I guess not just for dyspraxia, but any kind of neurodiversity, as the same kind of fears and costs probably apply. I feel very sad and alone, so any comments are welcome.