Today I was doing some tidying and I came across some old school reports from primary school. I don't know why but I felt really upset and triggered by them. In pretty much every report, the teacher had said that I didn't get on with other students which I never thought was the case. I had my own friends and was a quiet and sensitive kinda child but was always made out to be a problem. I found it hard being around some other kids because I was bullied and picked on relentlessly and would spend most of the day crying in the toilets.
Being bullied throughout school affected my self esteem big time even into my late 30's the age I am now. I've been treated like this for much of my life and it's just been hard that I've always been made out to be the problem. People just don't like me no matter how kind or friendly I am. I try not to let things get me down but today has just been a hard day for some reason