I'm so overwhelmed today

[mountaindewview]

I feel so stupid. I was on a couple of threads this morning and they went wrong and I got upset. Then I went into meltdown and now I've been accused of being a troll on another site that watches here when all I do is name change because I know I over share as a feature of my autism.

It's just so bloody hard to get it right and I never seem to.

Has anyone got any tips? It's been a difficult week and an ever more difficult day and I'm just struggling.

@mountaindewview no tips but I feel your pain, I never ever post on the Internet and I did for the first time today, I didn't realise the women on this site were so vicious and now I'm feeling worse than ever! I hope your OK x

Thanks @Mummyto2BBs I hope you're ok too

My main advice is to ignore other people's opinions and be secure in your own choices and opinions. Even if you change your mind 10 minutes later, that's ok. It really truly doesn't matter what other people think, especially randoms on the Internet. It's not as easy as it sounds, and some days will be harder than others, but judgy people are going to judge SOMEONE, and it just turned out to be you today (I am sorry it happened, it's hard when it does.)

If you're struggling because of non-internet, real life things, then my advice still stands but you also may need to find ways to regulate yourself- do you have any existing coping mechanisms that work when you're having a good to average day that you can draw on for difficult days?

Normally yes @DinosaurOfFire but I have real life stuff going on that has unbalanced me and they don't seem to be working too well.

Thank you for replying.

What sort of things do you usually do to help yourself regulate? Real life has a nasty way of unbalancing us that doesn't seem to happen for NT's! I've recently discovered that squishmallows and similar types of soft toys have a lovely calming texture, so I have been unashamedly "borrowing" them off my kids for a while and that has helped- I have now started my own fledgling collection. Do you feel like you need extr stimulation to cope- Eg a weighted blanket/ compression, or are you feeling avoidant, like you have too much going on and you need things to stop touching you/ being near you etc?

Thanks for replying again.

I need to decompress on my own and unfortunately the real life stuff I have going on means that's not really possible right now.

I have a weighted blanket. I haven't tried squishy toys but I'll get some and try that thank you.

I have just dug out some anti anxiety tablets and I'm going to take them for the next day or two til I'm over this funeral.

I hate being me sometimes.