So tired and overwhelmed with everything

[AlternativelyWired]

I need a break. Time completely on my own, preferably in the Peak District. I looked forward to the summer holidays but they've been stressful. The house is a tip, no one is motivated to do anything, we've been away but eldest turned it into a major stress along with jam packed trains, and money is no -existent at the moment. Ex owes me £300 in maintenance arrears. I've got loads of stuff to sell on vinted but can't muster the energy to do it. Caring for my mum is taking up a lot of time and mental energy and I just want a bloody break! Just having a moan really. There's no one to have the dc for a few hours and I don't even get any peace when I go to bed. I feel like the summer hasn't been a break at all and I'm sad that they are back to school soon as that will bring it's own stress but st least there'll be routine. Anyone relate?

I can certainly relate to the elderly parents bit. They seem to lurch from one crisis to the next - panic because they've turned their telly to the wrong setting and can't get it back, even when I've googled the manual and tried to talk them through it on the phone - and that sort of thing - every week there is something else. It breaks my heart because they used to be so capable.

Let's hope by the next holiday the train workers have reached an agreement and the trains will be running properly, or as properly as they ever do (!).

I hope once your DC are back at school that will give you the mental space you need to start on the things you need to do at home - and to have some time to relax by yourself, as it sounds like you need some 'me time' doing nothing before you go headlong into housework and Vinted selling.

Thank you I've just got into bed for my greatly reduced reading and chocolate time. Ds has messed about after his shower and kept getting out of ged saying he was scared or hearing noises. Dd has had a massive row on the phone with her older sister and was sobbing her heart out. Eldest is nasty about her sister's autism and says it's an excuse for upsetting people and is labelling herself. Eldest needs a lot of MH input. So it's been chaos here but at least I'm no longer irritable! I hate feeling irritable.

@BoardLikeAMirror here here to the trains being sorted.

I'm not sure the summer holidays ever really feel like a holiday. I'm back to counting down the days to them being back at school and being able to have more child free even if I'm at work time. Although the thought of school runs fills me with dread.

Glad you managed to get through to your chocolate time @AlternativelyWired even if it was reduced.

Bloody hell, with that description you are doing fantastically well at just keeping going. I can relate a lot,though I have been lucky to have a break this year. Many years I have not. I hope it changes for you too soon so you get a break too.

Three days left until a change in the issues I have to deal with. (Fingers crossed it is the same HoH)

Back to school for ds tomorrow! Tuesday for dd so dd and I are having a chill out day tomorrow. She will be full of back to school anxiety. I have asked the sendco for reasonable adjustments for her to make school less overwhelming.
It's been a funny old summer and I feel mainly sad.

I found the summer difficult. I don't cope well with routine changes.

We all need our down time. Hope you are getting some more schools are back.