I’m new to this forum, in the past ten days or so. It’s been wonderful to discover others out there are just like me. For me, it’s something akin to what happens in the film Close Encounters of the Third Kind. For anyone who’s not seen the film, there are a group of people who are different; for some reason they each draw/sculpt/make the same mountain where the extra terrestrials meet. They don’t know why they do it, it’s just intrinsic/weird/different and not within their control. Then, they meet and it ALL becomes clear. The answers, the craziness the realisation that it all means something. They’re not alone, others get it too!
And one thing that leaps out at me generally, is the vast number of ladies, often late diagnosed like myself, who’ve masked and tried to hide; slip under the radar and pass as so called “normal”. There’s a common theme. Masking. Fitting in. Pretending.
There are many people who then say “I’ve masked for so long, I hardly know which variation is the real me”. I absolutely identify with this. In real life, the people I know have never been in the same room together, at the same time; it’d be too hard for me to work out who to “be”.
So, the question is “How do you find the real you?” I can’t even say rediscover. I’ve been trying to “fit”; trying to meld and mould forever. It’s impossible to rediscover something or someone I’ve never been. Any advice is very much appreciated.