Chronic procrastination

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I don't know whether this is ASD related or whether it's a symptom of a dip in my MH (suffered with depression on and off for years) but I literally can't get anything done at the moment. I know what I should be doing, I know I will feel shit if it doesn't get done but I still can't/won't do it. I have wasted hours and hours this week watching crap tv and mindlessly scrolling on my phone, I'm bored out of my mind and beating myself up for not getting off my arse but still I just.......don't. Posting this here in case anyone relates and can offer insight/solutions, I'm so annoyed with myself

I was going to answer this yesterday but...

Yeah procrastination....

No insights unfortunately but I am exactly the same.
I can spend days and days just scrolling my phone. I'm like that at the moment, hence lots of posts from me on here.

This made me laugh so much, thank you

Do you spend the whole time you're scrolling feeling guilty because you know you should be doing something else ofwarren? I don't understand why, when I know it's making me feel bad, I can't just stop and get on with what I should be doing. I end up feeling panicky because I haven't done the things I should have and really angry and frustrated with myself, and worse still I know while I'm doing it that I will end up feeling like that and yet I still can't stop myself. Even if I make a conscious effort to not use my phone so much I just replace it with mindless tv (and it is mindless, think MAFS or Below Deck-type mindless ) and end up binge watching episode after episode. I feel like I'm literally wasting my life

I actually don't feel guilty but I feel stressed that things aren't done. No clean clothes, no dishes washed, not paid certain bills type thing.

I've no idea how to stop though.

It’s a huge part of my adhd so I don’t know how it compares for asd. But I need to procrastinate to get up enough steam to power through something. And for writing tasks my performance is better if it has had time to sit in my head for a while.

I have to pair doing with something fun to get it done. Rewards at the end mean nothing. If it’s chores I put on a podcast, ironing is Netflix, writing is chocolate etc.

But that makes me sound functional - if I am it’s only barely. I wake in a panic at night at the things that need going and then I’m too tired to remember or care in the daytime.

I gave up feeling guilty about having periods of prolonged procrastination years ago. I accept it as part of who I am.

I'm not in procrastination mindset all of the time and I often achieve a lot then. But I give myself a break when I can't do things and if necessary, I ask for help.