There are some days when I am able to function ok, but days like today when everything just hits me. I have ADHD only diagnosed last year and in one way it explains so much for me and has helped me to be kinder to myself, but on the other, sometimes I just wish I could be anyone else.
I've had the same problem all my life that people either don't like me or barely tolerate me with the result I have no friends (that are reliable or care about me anyway). I lost the only 3 people that ever cared about me. I'm fortunate in that my mother is amazing and very supportive but I realise she won't be around forever. I don't understand where I go wrong, I'm kind, thoughtful and empathic but have been rejected and treated badly over and over in my life and am at a point where I have become very agrophobic and afraid to even go out. Therapy has not helped because it hasn't taken away the deep feelings of loneliness and rejection.
Does anyone else deal with this or have any advice for how to cope? I feel at my wits end and wonder what the point of life is when I'm just going through it alone with little support or kindness