Any other ND people over commit when they are feeling well enough to function?

[ofwarren]

When I'm feeling able to function, I like to be out and about attending community events and sometimes groups and I find myself committing to things that I know I won't be able to fulfill when I go into shutdown (which is quite often these days).

For example, I attend a local church and I have twice now let them down by agreeing to volunteer and also the same with our local parish council. I am all enthusiastic but sometimes, when the day comes I physically cannot even collect my thoughts so I cannot go. When I'm feeling OK, I really do want to do the volunteering or activity.

This makes me feel like I live some kind of half life. I feel like I can only observe rather than take part in anything that requires any level of commitment from me. It's actually quite upsetting.

Does anyone else feel like this?

Yes! It's awful. Are you a "yes person"?

I had to work at this and not take on new things.

New jobs! New volunteering!

I have my priorities to focus on but then I'm like 'but I could train to be a police officer!' instead of working on what I already have to do.

It's kind of like fear of missing out. I'm experienced in so many work areas with certificates and job offers. I like what I do and make enough money, so why am I even looking?

It's ridiculous.

I'm totally a yes person. At the time it does really seem like a good idea and in an ideal world I'd love to do those things. It doesn't help that I can mask very well so other people try and volunteer me for stuff. I got designated the person who writes all the notes when I attended my first parish council meeting...people started emailing and ringing me and I totally freaked out and never attended again.

Definitely. This is why I've disconnected from everything and everyone now.

It definitely easier to do that but I feel like I'm missing out if I don't do anything. I like being out and doing things but can only manage it on and off. I can't hold down a job for the same reason.