I've namechanged for this
I'm a full time Masters studenet recently diagnosed with dyslexia and dyspraxia.
I'm so done with two courses in particular. They both have common aspects - the lecturers can be hard to understand whether that's because they aren't good at explaining things, not teachers but trainers with little experience and they rely heavily on videos. Sometimes their speech isn't always clear enough for the subtitles to even pick up what they are saying properly, most are British btw.
If I ask for help for one course in particular I'm sent back to the videos and it's just not working. I feel like I'm being told to keep having to listen to something I didn't understand in the first place, a bit like when someone speaks louder to a foreigner because they think it'll make it easier for them to understand. Doesn't work.
One course I know I'll eventually be okay in because there's plenty of tutors out there but one course is going to be difficult because there's very little resource out there that can help.
The other course is making me feel so so so so bad. I can't even put into words how awful it feels taking what feels like years to understand some stuff because my brain has to process it slowly.
I can't tell my DH about it anymore because he's the type that wants to fix things and there's nothing he can fix. He doesn't really get just listening to me is sometimes enough help, but that's a story for another day.
I have access to specialised support on my course but it's all come too late to really help me properly. My coach is away this week as well, of all the weeks for me to have a total meltdown.
So I'm just venting here because there's nowhere else I can really talk about it. I'm so done.