Hi guys.
I'm really desperate for some advice. I'm undiagnosed but know I am definitely autistic.
Myself and my partner have been together for 4 years (same sex relationship). We decided that we should take the plunge and start a family. We went through the process found a sperm donor and was successful first time.
From week 4 I have been suffering with Hyperemesis vomiting 10+ times a day and unable to keep anything down. I've been in hospital multiple times for IV fluids and anti emetic.
It has seriously traumatised me. I feel no connection with this baby at all. It just makes me feel ill. And I have never felt so out of control of my body I cannot cope with it. I never thought getting pregnant would make me this ill of I did I would have never embarked on this journey.
It is seriously affecting my mental health. I so badly want an abortion. I just know that I'm not able to do this. I've told my NT partner how I am feeling and I'm every bad person under the sun. And I signed up for this so I must continue with it.
I'm at a loss
It's making me so suicidal.