I think I have ADHD, I am still considering whether to seek assessment or not. A lot of things would make a lot of sense if I do have ADHD.
I was wondering if anyone who understands ADHD can offer insight as to whether this is a “thing”. I have noticed that when I am trying to do a task that I find difficult to do - not a difficult task that is beyond my skills, but tasks that I just tend to shut down with and not find my brain capable of continuing to focus on to complete - I seem to find it easier to keep going if I deliberately distract myself with something else at the same time. It’s like having something else competing for my attention allows me to sneak in the boring/difficult task without my brain shutting down.
I realised this yesterday. I had a 90 minute online meeting that I didn’t need camera/microphone on for so I did it at home and spent the whole time decluttering and tidying whilst listening to the meeting and just occasionally stopping to type a comment. I worked really well. Normally, I’d do the meeting at work, and be constantly doodling, or getting distracted looking at other things on my computer or out of the window or sneaking off to get myself a snack. I am also never able to do 90 minutes decluttering and tidying at home and find housework really really challenging to manage, despite being a high level professional and pretty successful at work. But somehow my brain didn’t lose focus and I kept going on the decluttering without shutting down and was able to achieve a significant amount.
Thinking about it, I also find when I am at work and trying to get through a batch of admin work (which I usually fall behind on and struggle with), that I find it easier to keep going and complete more tasks when I have a completely unrelated video playing on my phone, I often choose home/garden makeover shows for example, that by having a little bit of my brain distracted there stops it wandering off elsewhere and lets me sneak in the admin tasks that I would really struggle to complete if that was all I was trying to do.
Does any of this make sense in terms of an ADHD brain. It’s almost like my brain is going to find something else to wander off about anyway, or find the whole task too overwhelming to compute so just shut down, but by deliberately giving it something else to do at the same time it can keep ticking over and keep going on the difficult thing. I don’t think it works all the time and sometimes I would get distracted anyway or shutdown anyway.
Anyway just wondering if this makes any sense.