Hi all, I’m early 40s and my daughter is autistic. As time goes on I really think I might be too. Please could you read my brain dump of thoughts and see what you think. Thank you!
Worry if I’ve said the wrong thing / not asked enough questions/ talked about myself too much when I’ve seen friends
Some sensory issues - hate bright sunlight and get headaches from some smells eg perfume
Like things to be planned and hate it if things go wrong / changes. I like to be in control and find it very hard to relinquish control
Have emotional outbursts when very stressed - can cry, scream, be too physical, also want to hide and go sit in a corner
Have friends but find group situations hard and haven’t had a true group of friends since high school
Find making new friends hard - I’m not great at suggesting things as I fear rejection/ the other person doesn’t like me
I’ve changed job a lot
Did very well at school academically but lost my way after that so did a degree I didn’t like then a post grad thing I didn’t like
Was also a primary school teacher which I did like but currently not working as I care for my autistic daughter and I want her to have the lowest stress possible
But I had a very stressful childhood and also think I have complex ptsd not being autistic!
I can’t really talk to my mum but I remember her saying how shy I was as a child. I remember also when my autistic daughter had a lot of echolalia my mum saying I echoed a lot.
But also I don’t have issues with executive function I don’t think- I’m so organised really and good at admin I think.
Thank you!