Bpd depressed and had enough

[Leoni2020]

I'm 41, single wit 2 children.
I hate life
I hate the same ting day in day out, breakfast time. School run triggers me badly, dinnertime, nuggets and chips or pizza is all they apparently like. Bathtime, tidying up constantly and I just dread bedtime because I have to with them both till they're asleep..

Not with their dad, he's a good dad but doesn't and never has contributed to household stuff.
Realised you can't trust anyone even friends.

My family are all useless and drug users, I'm not.
All iv done for 6months is smoke roll ups and drink coffee loaded with sugar, don't eat a thing at all, feel unhealthy.
I just want to do my hobbies and a break but no chance. I have
BPD, MILD TOURETTES, ADHD, OCD AND SEVERE DEPRESSION. even if I were rich I cannot drag myself out of it.
If I didn't have my 2 littlens I would be happily gone. X

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So sorry you’re feeling like this. Are you on treatment? Have you told your doctor it’s not working?

I'm on sertraline 150ml.
Think it's just loneliness and Groundhog day every day. Apologies for missing spelt post above. Digits are faulty.
Iv told my doctor yes but they just hand out anti d"s

So sorry. It can take a while to find the right meds at the right dose. I also found CBT helpful.