Hi everyone,
I have many reasons to suspect I may be autistic, but I'm so worried about going to the doctors in case I'm wasting their time I'd find it so embarrassing if I wasn't and they'd wasted their time on me with tests etc. Maybe it would help if I added a few things that make me believe I am on the spectrum.
- I get really bad sensory overload, I can't be in a room with loads of different noises at once although one loud noise doesn't seem to bother me as much.
- I struggle to take jokes and have been told my whole life I take everything literally
- I can hear perfectly well but I struggle to understand what people say, it's like they're speaking gibberish so I rely on lip reading (difficult with the current circumstances)
- A small argument with someone leads me to believe it is the end of my relationship with that person
- I prefer my own time
- I count ALL the time, to the point it really makes me feel insane sometimes
- I get worried when I can't predict how something is going to play out (strange one I know) but going to the shop etc I have to plan my shopping list in order as if I'm going round the shop so I struggle a lot if it's a new shop.
- I cannot handle criticism, I never have been able to, this has caused me to lose many jobs in the past
These are just some things that make me believe I may be on the spectrum, there is many more. My family tel me they think I am autistic. Now, I know I used the word struggle a lot but it is making me struggle more and more and I have my little boy now, I don't want it to effect his life too. I'm so sorry for the long post but I was hoping to see when people knew they should go for a test.. what sort of things showed you you may be autistic? What was the process like? As I said I'm so worried to waste the doctors time, that seems so embarrassing to me if I turn out not to be and something else is effecting me.. maybe that's part of it I don't know.
If you've got this far, thank you!!