Hi all, first time posting here but have read Mumsnet for years! To cut a long story short, I have been on anxiety medication for years, and am now talking with a therapist once every 2 weeks through IAPT. My sister was diagnosed with Autism at the age of 35, this was 2 years ago. The more I think about it, the more traits I seem to relate to, alot! For example, I struggle to show emotion, my ex husband used to call me the ice queen. I find loud tv's distressing, I focus on certain noises that other people make, to the point where it makes my blood boil. It could be anything, like a cough, or even a bracelet banging on a desk, while typing. I adore my son, he is my world, but even if he sits by me on the sofa, its annoys me and I hate feeling this way. I can be really blunt, if someone says something, I will put my point across and then think, oh gosh that was harsh, and try and talk my way out of it. My sister said to me a few years back that I don't make people feel welcome, I didn't even realise I did this! I had a full on meltdown once, because my partner came over and told me he could stay until a certain time, which was way longer than I anticipated, so I shouted at him and told him that wasn't in the plan.
I have also noticed that I squeeze my hand together, all the time, and it hurts but I can't stop. I used to push my tongue on the back of my teeth, which also hurt, but again I couldn't stop.
I could go on, but I hope you get the gist!
Just looking for advice and perhaps experience of these feelings and what I should do going forward?
Thanks