Made GP appointment to get referral for ADHD / Asperger's assessment

[NooNooHead1981]

I sometimes feel like I'm falling apart. Or more precisely, that my life is, and that I am literally holding onto everything by a thread, and if one more thing happens it will break me.

I am distracted by so many different things, all the time. Don't concentrate or finish tasks. Procrastinate and end up not doing things. I've always been really overly sensitive and a deep thinker, very thin skinned and impatient, overly worried what others think of me, very cautious, bad co-ordination.

All of these things I thought of as just part of me, until I had a head injury two years ago and I think they have been seriously exacerbated. Other personal crises in my life haven't helped, like having a drug induced movement disorder, ectopic pregnancy, breakdown, and the loss of my DB to cancer.

I just feel like one more thing could push me over the edge. I don't want to go back on antidepressants, but I have a doctor's appmt on Friday to ask about a possible referral to a specialist for a diagnosis.

Given my fragile mental health in the past, I'm not sure how helpful a diagnosis would be. I have seen a list of Asperger's syndrome traits online that are literally a fit for me word for word... see here: help4aspergers.com/female-as-traits/

I know that printing this off and showing my GP may be helpful but I wonder if she will be more dismissive if she sees me coming in an self diagnosing.

What have been your experiences of diagnosis etc? How long did it take? Should I even consider getting a referral for one?

Sorry I have no experience of getting a diagnosis myself but just wanted to say I can relate to your symptoms and have suspected I have asd for a long time now. Never had the guts to make an appointment though in case it really is just in my head or people don’t believe me so I think you’re really brave making that appointment and I wish you all the best

I know this is a month old but I just wanted to say that I can really relate to your post. I too have that feeling of falling apart, on top of the usual ASD traits. I don't have any advice, I've just started the process of getting an assessment but I'm hoping a diagnosis will allow me to be kinder to myself. I feel as though it's all too much of a struggle, working out what other people want and how I should act all of the time. I'm knackered. Hope you're doing ok.