Not managing at work

[helpimitchy]

I've apparently done something wrong to offend the deputy manager and I'm persona non grata now I think it may have been due to me complaining about the place to her daughter's friend - they're both employed there now. She's tittletattled if this is the case. I thought she was okay, but what do I know?

Anxiety is through the roof and I feel depressed. On meds, but they only work to an extent. I just don't want to leave the house or go to work. I sit feeling sick, shaking, get chest pain when it's really bad. Nightmares have come back.

I want to go sick, but I'm not sure how long the GP will be willing to sign me off for. I need about three months off tbh. My head is done in.

Colleagues believe autism is optional and I should just manage like they have to manager takes the piss by understaffing and hiring people who are about as much use as a turnip and with rather less intelligence to boot. I never know what I'm going in to each shift.

I suspect that the deputy manager deliberately didn't cover one of the shifts I was in on as revenge for pissing her off. We used to get on so well.

Dunno whether to contact my union.

help your workplace sounds horrendous generally. Is there any alternative place nearby you could move to? It doesn't seem to get any better.

Re the current situation, in my head I'm inclined to suggest having it out with her but I can't imagine doing that in real life!

I know, it's one thing after another

I'm scared of moving because I might end up somewhere worse. Most care homes are pretty awful really. I was thinking of going on the agency, but that involves moving around all the time. I just dunno what to do.

If I were in your position, I'd do agency for a set time, maybe 6 weeks. Work out where you like (you'll soon get a feel for where is good and where is awful) and then try to get a permanent job somewhere else. You can't carry on where you are long-term, it sounds awful. They don't listen, both to the detriment of you and the patients, they don't support you, someone is essentially freezing you out! I think you'd feel a lot happier in yourself if you found another workplace.

Honestly, I've been stuck somewhere for ages and it's dragged me down. I have a new job to go to in the NY and whenever I mention it, I smile!

mitchy I have absolutely no advice to give you besides what Faith has said. I just wanted to give you a virtual hug, as I could just feel your distress and the physical feelings. We take these things very hard don't we? The feeling of having transgressed in some way. Hope you feel better soon. Do see your Doctor if you can get an appointment!! Even if you get a few weeks off, it will give you some space to recharge. Take care of yourself.

Bloody hell

Mentioned to the chilly deputy that I wanted to reduce my shifts and she's gone and found cover for them for the rest of November I'd already contacted the admin woman who does our off duty and explained that I wanted reduced shifts from December.

I told chilly deputy that I didn't want that and needed to work the shifts I've been given until the end of November.

They want rid of me don't they? I've been there for over seven years.

I do my nursing revalidation early next year and don't know if I can risk leaving before I've done that.

I'm scared now. I don't know whether to call my union or just cut my losses.

Thanks for the replies btw. I do appreciate it.

I'm going to go and see the GP next week. I hope she offers to sign me off tbh.

How are things help? How are you feeling?

Oh, hi Faith you're kind for asking

The doc has increased my Sertraline to 150mg and put me on beta blockers (propranolol) for the shaking and anxiety.

I've cut down to five shifts a month, but will need to top up on the agency in the new year. I think I have enough dosh to get through xmas.

I've pretty much ground to a halt though I can barely manage to do anything. I'm just sitting on the sofa playing my Ludo app over and over. I'm managing to do the laundry, but not much housework.

I can't be bothered to get a xmas tree or order presents. I just don't have any energy. Dh has also ground to a halt due to the stress with his elderly mother. He says he can't face having her over for xmas.

I'm on shift with tell tale tittle next Friday and chilly deputy has just texted me to ask me to swap so I do Saturday instead. I guess tell tale doesn't fancy the inevitable atmosphere. She should have thought of that though. I'm not swapping. I can brazen it out. She'll probably phone in sick now.

Doc says I'll have to be referred to the psychiatrist if the Sertraline doesn't work. She was very interested in my Aspergers assessment report and said that's why I'm stressed and struggling. I now have it on my medical records as an official diagnosis

(any ideas about what I can 'feed' to tell tale, so she can go and tell chilly deputy?)

I think it's really sensible to cut your shifts down and top up with agency. You sound very dedicated and I'm sure you'll be offered other jobs in no time!

Too right, stand your ground. Work that shift! I've found medics approach to me quite different since my diagnosis, I hope it helps you too. Hmm, stories to tell..I'm not great with stuff like that, let me think!

Let's just say I'm putting an escape plan in place I can't continue like this.

I've also bought a small xmas tree and a little thing for the front door.

Good! Excellent work on both fronts

Plan has gone wrong.

The manager showed me around the new care home and, in each bedroom, there was one of those industrial strength air fresheners on the wall. I absolutely can't manage to be around these we have them where I am now, but only a few and I've reprogrammed them so that they're off overnight. I couldn't possibly manage to do this undetected and they'll think I'm crazy.

What do I do now? I really liked it as well.