Please help me, I can't go on feeling locked out of like

[caramelcoffee]

Hi everyone,
I have just found this lovely corner and I am really hoping I could get some advice of what to do next and maybe some support.

I read an article on how ASD presents in adult women and also about SPD and it was a lightbulb moment.

I have struggled with depression. social and sensory problems all of my life.

I have realised recently that the depression has been a by product of my other difficulties.

I find everyday life so hard.
I feel like an alien, like I am looking in on the world through a dirty window.

Like everybody else knows 'how it works' and I have to try to figure it out again and again.

I can't stand noise, I can't stand being touched, and I can't form relationships. - even with my own family members.

I am a mum of 2 with a supportive DP but he gets fed up of me, he hopes I can try harder and change.

Sorry if that is all waffle!
Thank you very much for taking the time to read

Thanks for replying goose.

I don't know if I can keep up with the chat thread, it's a bit overwhelming.

I will see if I can give it a go.

I think I want to get a DX so I stop beating myself up but I am worried that others will treat me differently.

I just want people to accept me for who I am.

Wish I could talk to someone in RL who is like me.
I feel so alone