I have recently found out that I am pregnant and the timing couldn't be worse. The father doesn't want to be involved, I'm unemployed for the first time in my life and in the middle of interviewing for a fantastic job. I am also not in a position to buy a property. At 36 and having lost 2 babies in my life - one miscarriage, one stillborn (nothing medically to suggest this will happen again)I have been gearing myself up for the right circumstances to try and prepare myself for having a baby. My heart is completely torn in two. I don't know how or if I will cope with or without this baby and I don't know what to do.