i am so poorly with this bug/flu. Body been shivering most of the day and night. Lost my appetite and overall weak.
I have twin 3 yrs old twins- they are my world. So much love for them and try my best in everything I do.
My husband became disabled nearly 2 years ago - however his heath has been declining. Its becoming so much harder for me. I do EVERYTHING…
⁃ work full time in pressured job (wfh 3 days, the other 2 the MIL comes to help hubby)
⁃ Drop kids off to nursery everyday
⁃ Get them ready in the morning as well as myself
⁃ Recently I have told hubby he needs to start picking then up as it’s interfering with my job. He knows this but the pain is to bad
⁃ Clean the house
⁃ Food shopping
⁃ Booking appts n making sure we attend them
⁃ Plan the weekends (however if i am meeting anyone without hubby the kids have to come as he is not able to look after them)
Today was tipping point. I am so poorly n my body is aching. I needed to sleep it off however we had to do 45 mins switching turns. By the end of the night I am lying on the floor struggling to breathe and feel like i am going to pass out. Hubby and I argue as he is in pain and i do understand but my body is telling me I need rest.
So today the twins have mostly been on tablets, they weren’t feeling 100% either and i feel like the worst awful mum.
I feel like I am giving up and letting them down. I cant stress enough that my twins are just so perfect……my babies!
Family support is poor so no1 could help out today and probably the same tomorrow. I can understand they have their own lives but i feel extremely low today n I dont ask for help often.
I don’t know why i am posting. I suppose is anyone else in similar situation?
Don’t get me wrong, I know this isn’t the worlds worst issues but I am reaching out for some ideas to help me.