I am a Western born Oriental woman pregnant with an Indian man outside of marriage and I'm looking for some advice regarding my current situation.
The father of my child and I were together for almost 2 years before we broke up due to mental differences but have been trying to fix our partnership again the past year. We've grown and have been doing very well this time round but now I've just found out i'm pregnant which has created alot of tension and stress for the both of us.
My "partner" doesn't wish to have the child as he feels that it will ruin his life and he would get disowned by his family, but I feel like my life will be ruined if I go through with an abortion as I was told many times I couldn't conceive. So to me, this is an absolute miracle; a gift from God. I've explained that if he doesn't wish to take part in raising the child, I would understand but he doesn't want me to have the child at all which is something I cannot do. He keeps telling me the ONLY option is to abort which I dont think is fair on me.
His family know of me as a friend, but not as his partner and i've met them twice. I understand his struggle and fears, and him being quite young I know he may resent me if I go through with the pregnancy but the thought of aborting this child breaks my heart everyday so I know that if I'm feeling like this now, the regret and resentment i'll feel towards him later on in life will be too much to handle.
I really love him with all my heart and he has explained that he loves me too and wishes to build a family with me later on in life, but for me, there is no guarantee I'd get pregnant again. And I don't know if he's even being honest with me because if he truly loved me and wanted to build a family with me, wouldn't he have already taken the steps to introduce me to his family after 2 years? I don't know.... I think deep down he feels that I won't be accepted into his family and right now although he loves me, I'm just a good time and our relationship is a dead end hence why he is so fearful of me having the child.
Am I being selfish for wanting to keep this child? What can I do in this situation?