I have messed up.
I have worked very hard over the last 3 years (longer but last 3 years with a vengeance) to sort my credit out.
I have done it. Almost. I have paid off almost all my credit cards, I have a small affordable balance, and two more payments on a loan.
This has taken time, effort and tight finances.
The one outstanding debt I need to pay is £2900 overdraft with Barclays, an old account lingering from my student days, not been used for 3 years apart from payments. This was going to be next, in November when the last loan payment I have to make has been made, and this money will go onto Barclays. My credit rating is very good, for the first time in years. My mortgage company are even prepared to lend on a bigger mortgage! (although I am not going there right now, in reality we can't afford it, although on paper it looks that way).
In the meantime I have been paying them £100 every now and then, just to keep them ticking over, to keep within my overdraft. Every now and then I get a red letter and then I pay to bring it in line. I was so close to getting this sorted.
I recieved a red letter and forgot about it, to be honest. Its been a whirlwind of a month what with MIIL coming to visit. Anyway, no excuse.
So I get a letter saying I need to bring the account back in order within 4 days. They have asked for debit card back, fine, restricted use of account, fine. I don't use it.
I made a payment on saturday of £250, by credit card (cash transfer) 4 days late (so it took me 8 days to pay, not 4).
They have terminated the account and now want full payment. I asked the man on the phone if I could have it re-instated, and a direct debit set up to pay it off, and he said no.
He was very abrupt and quite intimidating, left me shaking, he asked me what I would be doing. He said, so, you cant pay it off in 14 days, what are you going to do about it then? How do you intend to resolve this.
I said I had made a £250 payment, and I could probably afford £60 a month. He said they would be very unlikely to help me then, but there was a vague chance they could give me a loan at high interest, a 'transfer loan' but if I could only pay £60 a month then they probably can't do it.
He said, in order to even consider this, they need a financial statement from me, my income, m husbands income, debts I owe and to who, expenditure, and they will see.
I feel so degraded. I have managed to clear thousands of pounds of debt that has hung over me without feeling this humiliated and useless.
What on earth am I going to do? How am I going to be able to pay back a debt of now £3090? My credit rating is going to be shot and I worked so hard, it has been painstaking to get this far and I was so close.
Is this the only option?