Hi, I've been ill in bed for the last few weeks and have got really depressed about life in general - inevitably I guess . Too much time to naval gaze. I had an acrimonious split from an abusive ex who I wasn't married to. I'm left with primary aged children and no money. The court process cost me a small fortune - to leave an abusive ex who I wasn't married to, who would have thought.
Anyway, what I'm worrying about is that I'm the wrong side of 50 and I don't have a pension. I have paid NI contributions but don't have a private pension. Is there any hope for my old age? I'm looking for work and am looking for jobs that have a good pension rather than what I want to do. I haven't worked for a decade because of caring responsibilities, then kids, and then the abusive relationship.
Any advice? I do own my home with a small mortgage so that is one good thing. I think I always thought having a property from when I was single would be my pension and I would work and have my own pension and then being in a relationship with children then we would go into old age together and share life and living and all would be ok.
But life has dealt some seriously bad cards in the last decade plus and I ended up leaving work to look after a family member who died, had already met ex who then took advantage of me financially as well as the other abuse. So my savings were depleted and he milked me of everything I had - my friends, my money, my family, my life, my soul, my very being - I have no idea who I am anymore, anxious, scared, cant trust people. Im left with no family, no friends, and no job. I'm feeling so depressed about life. Please be kind as I am feeling really shite about things.
If I could get a job with a pension, will 15/20 years of working left give me a life afterwards? My own parents died early 70s so sometimes I just think "Only got 20 years left so stop worrying"..