My partner was arrested and removed from the home when I gave birth to my premature baby. I'm still on universal credit and I know people think this is a cushy lifestyle but with running water and putting the heating on only for ten minutes the gas alone is £20 a week. We have just had flu. We sleep together and go to bed in the afternoon. We spend a lot of time in the library, out walking, in shops. We can eat, that's ok as I'm resourceful and I hardly eat anything as I have a poor appetite and I get £17 a month for the baby's milk. But I have chronic kidney failure, I am frequently Ill and have been hospitalised twice in the past few months. The dad is not good ...he works full time but still defaults on the tiny amount of child support...but his parents looked after my baby when I was in hospital. My parents are dead. I don't really want anything or know what to say but when it's cold and you're alone through no fault of your own it's shit. I have the library and the books and live in a good community. But what hope is there for my baby really when it's just me and her and every day is just depressing and i feel mg body is slowly fading away from lack of sleep or rest or fighting to keep warm.