Hi all, sorry I've not posted for a while, apart from not being well, I've had a lot of other issues and one of them, brings me here today.
3 years ago, I left my partner because of her stupidity with money and unwillingness to curb her spending, lack of affection towards me and her behaviour in general. I have enough money for a funeral put away, I have almost 4K in savings and run my normal bank account with around 2K in it.
Now I'm in a much better place, my finances are OK, not brilliant, but, OK, I'm a great deal happier, sleeping better and enjoying life, to a point. I'm scared to spend money, no matter how small a sum it may be, Lidl and Aldi are my shopping haunts and I buy the cheapest stuff I can get away with. I need a fresh cooker as the one I have is shot, only one ring and the bottom oven work, but I cannot convince myself to buy another, the watch I've had for over 8 years has packed in and even after fitting a new battery, it didn't work, so I've scrapped it, again, I cannot justify the expense to get another, even though watches are as cheap as chips these days.
I'm not a greedy, tight or miserly person, it's just I had so many years of living hand to mouth because of my ex, I'm worried that one day, I'll have no money and it's causing me a great deal of self doubt. I couldn't say when the last time a treat myself to something I could use or I needed.
It's got to the point where I only shave once a week, but keep myself and clothes clean and shower everyday.
I've had CBT but got nothing from it, can anyone suggest something I can do please, it's doing my head in.