Sorry for long post. Basically me and my partner have been together 4.5 years and have a 3yo child. Hes on a very good wage pays Bill's in house and I buy food shopping and pay for childcare. I only work part time due to childcare. My partner can be quite selfish with money and if I ever needed money for milk etc he will point blank refuse to give me it. Anyways I have quite a bit of debt ( my own stupid fault I know) so basically what's left of my wage is paying my debts. My partner also expects half of my wage off me each month for his spending money to go to pub or whatever which leaves me with nxt to nothing yo live on each month. Due to all of this I have fallen into depression . I also have morses club loans (door to door) which are costing me 140 a month. My partner doesnt know about these debts and will go absolutely mental if I told him. I just feel like everything is fallen apart for me and I have nobody to talk to. I'm ashamed that iv let myself get into this state. I have 4 family birthdays plus my partner nxt week and dont have a penny to buy anything (only got paid yesterday). I'm just sick of my life and cant see any way out. I cant get a debt relief order or anything either as he is on too big of a wage. Anyways I dnt really know why I'm writing this post just feeling so helpless. And thankyou to whoever has read this x