Advance warning....This will be a bit of a rant as I don't feel like I've got anyone I can talk to. I can't talk to my family about money worries or lot of my friends.
My DH went self employed 3 years ago and it has been a constant worry to get bills paid and keep on top of things. His work picks up for a bit but then drops off again. We've never had a bill unpaid as I've usually managed to juggle things around or food shop with a credit card to get by. He's not had as much work as normal since sept although he's always saying I shouldn't worry as this contract or that project is about to start. He's usually right (annoyingly) and things tick over. Today I rang him on my lunch break and he told me he doesn't have the £148 for his car loan payment next week. I went effing mad and no he sas I've made him cross. I'm fed up with the pressure to keep our heads above water. I've already told him if he didn't have me working he'd have to get a full time job. If it wasn't for tax credits and child benefit we'd be screwed. I ask him for £500 a month towards house and bills and I've only had the full amount about 3 times in three years He usually contributes about 350 sometimes less. I understand he's work is quiet but if I try to bring up being proactive I feel fobbed off God forbid I should suggest he goes back to working in an employed job. If he's not at work he is playing ps4 and does the bare min round the house like. feel like he's taking the pi&* out of me. Anyone been here. Just want someone to tell me I'm not being a complete cow!