Thanks, I'm trying to stay calm about it, but things like this just terrify me. (One reason I've never even bothered trying to find out about a mortgage, besides the fact that I know I can't afford anything round here. Just the actual going in to a bank and having to talk and not knowing what to say/do/ask, getting flustered, and feeling stupid, etc). I hate talking. But I think seeing someone face-to-face would honestly be better, if I could get the nerve, because it just seems so easy to not know what options/levels of cover/fine print choices etc to make. I've nobody to come with me or recommend anyone, so was trying to find a site online that listed the independent ones, but there weren't very many, often in nearby towns rather than here. And then when I googled the websites of a couple of the nearer ones, that's where I found the one that says they wanted clients with £100K+ to invest. I can't shake the feeling that it's such a little thing to go see them about that they won't be interested and feel it's a waste of their time.
I didn't know that banks recommended people though. Even someone to do insurance things not just investments? That's good.
And I didn't know about getting benefits either as a self-employed person, which is useful.
I guess the sort of thing I'm worried about would be getting cancer or something and not working for however many months as a result. And then not being able to just pick up and start back again, as I'd have to build up all my pupils again, which could take a while, even if I were healthy enough to work. And I know that some policies are really dodgy about what they cover, and I'd like someone to walk me through it and choose a good one for me.
Or something longer term that prevented me from working generally long-term, though I don't know whether that's more or less likely than a critical illness, whether permanent health insurance is better value as more likely to pay out, even if it's more expensive than critical illness.
I hadn't really thought about ordinary private health insurance for the sake of speeding up any treatment, though I can see that could be valuable too.
the whole medical declaration bit scares me. I worried about not declaring things that would then make any claim invalid, because I keep hearing about people that happens to, but that would likely make me over-state things to the point where it looks like I have some pre-existing symptoms when I don't! I don't know how detailed the questions are, whether I have to remember everything I've been to the doctor for and how far back, just in case.
And just the whole thing about making the appointment, going in, makes me dead nervous. I don't have a will, mortgage, proper pension, etc just because I'm almost phobic about talking to people like that when I feel I won't know what I'm talking about. The little pension I did set up I ended up doing online, even though I knew it would be better to talk to someone properly, because I was too scared. And yet I'm perfectly intelligent, got a degree, fairly competent about ordinary things - but walking into a bank or an insurance firm or a lawyer's office or something and asking about stuff like this just finishes me.
thank you for the advice. My resolution is to sort this out in January, so I'm just going to have to be brave and try to find someone to go see.