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Miscarriage/pregnancy loss

Find support and share your experiences on our Miscarriage forum. See also legal rights and support after baby loss.

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Can't take it anymore!

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Rocklover · 29/06/2010 10:19

I started spotting nearly 2 weeks ago, had an early scan that showed that all was fine. Growth position and heartbeat were very good and I thought I could stop worrying.

However, I had the scan last Tuesday and I am still spotting, in fact it seems to be slightly heavier, mostly brown, but red streaks getting more frequent. I don't have any cramps, although I get a dull period ache from time to time. I spoke to the m/w who was very lovely, but advised there was nothing I could do and that another scan wouldn't really help.

I am so scared I am going to miscarry, the wondering and waiting is killing me. I know no-one can tell me what I want to hear, but I just needed to rant.

I am 9+3 btw.

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AnyFucker · 29/06/2010 10:21

So sorry you are going through this

What torture !

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Rocklover · 29/06/2010 10:26

It is. If something is going to happen i wish it just would, I can't deal with the worry.

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AnyFucker · 29/06/2010 10:29

I understand that, love

I won't tell you to put it out of your mind and get on with your day, because that is impossible

But there really is nothing you can do

I wish you all the luck in the world

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Rocklover · 29/06/2010 10:38

Thank you. Doesn't help that I feel really yucky with pregnancy nausea (which I know is a good sign, but it isn't making me feel more confident) and the after effects of an awful upset tummy from yesterday.

Just feel so unhappy and poorly.

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banana87 · 29/06/2010 10:39

Shouldn't they be scanning you again regardless since things haven't eased up? I'd be pushing them for another scan. Good luck, for what it's worth I had the same weeks 7-14 with DD and it was all fine.

AnyFucker · 29/06/2010 10:41

hang on to the nausea

I had 2 mc's and with my 3rd pg, the nausea reassured me things were as they should be

GlastonburyGoddess · 29/06/2010 10:41

I would ring the EPAC/EPAU and request another scan for a week or so time. Another scan will help as it will put your mind at rest. my epac were really good when i had ds1 was scanned almost weekly till 14 weeks and it definately helped knwing he was growing and the heatbeat was still there etc

try ringing them directly rather than going through gp/mw

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Rocklover · 29/06/2010 10:44

Well, it's because i have my 12 wk scan booked already for around 3 weeks time. I suppose they have reasoned they could not do anything to help me even if they did scan me.

The sonographer had a very good look round last week and could not see any reasons for bleeding, so they concluded it was hormnonal. My m/w seemed to think it sounds like I have a clot somewhere because the spotting is not stopping.

I know there is nothing anyone can do, but the not knowing is dreadful. I'm already terrified of what we will see at the 12 wk scan.

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Rocklover · 29/06/2010 10:46

Thanks Glastonbury, I will have a look for their number and give them a call.

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Rocklover · 29/06/2010 11:22

Cannot find a bloody number for the epu at Torbay hospital.

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GlastonburyGoddess · 29/06/2010 11:48

ring the main hospital number and tell them youve mislaid the number for their epu, they should be able to assist you hth x

bluesatinsash · 29/06/2010 20:38

Rocklover - feeling your terror . Been there... Had 2 mc between DS1 and 2 and was paranoid wreck during DS2 pregnancy. I went for 5 early scans as I bled every day from week 5 to 10. Brownish blood but sometimes it had stringy clots.

The fact that you are feeling sick and having no cramps is a really really good sign. I had horrendous ms with both boys but hardly any with 2 mc...

If you've never had a mc and have seen a fetal hb then the chances are so so good that everything will be OK.

Sending you every positive sticky vibe

The first trimester is just bloody awful.

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Rocklover · 30/06/2010 09:05

Hi Blue, thanks for the reassurance. I decided not to pursue going for another scan, I just couldn't cope with going yesterday. Plus as the m/w pointed out, the fact that I had a good scan result last week and the symptoms haven't changed, points to the fact that it is hopefully still all ok.

She also pointed out that the scan will only tell me what is happening right now and will not necessarily tell me whether anything will go wrong in the next few weeks. To be honest the last scan only reassured me for a few days and I was back to worrying again because the spotting hadn't stopped.

I am absolutely terrified of the 12 week scan, bracing myself for bad news. So next three weeks is going to be a dreadful waiting game.

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saffronbun · 30/06/2010 18:06

I know it's not much consolation when you're stressing but I read somewhere that about 40% of women experience bleeding/spotting during pregnancy - and there are definitely a lot of people on these boards who have had that. Treat yourself kindly, look after yourself and remember that the grotty morning sickness is positive. I've got my fingers crossed for you x

bluesatinsash · 30/06/2010 22:01

Rock - early scans are a double edged sword as you are only as 'safe' as your last scan. I remember my first early one with DS2 and saying to DH as we walked out the room, well the HB is there just now but it may be gone by the time we get home .

You just have to try and stay positive and hold onto the nausea.

Will be thinking of you these next few weeks. Please post and let me know how your 12-scan went. I really feel it will all be OK x

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Rocklover · 30/06/2010 22:34

Thanks for the kind comments saffron and blue. I am spotting a little less today (and still mainly brown). I get slightly more spotting after going to the loo (TMI, but for a bowel movement), so not sure if that means anything.

I feel slightly less sick today (but it's there in the background, worse if i don't eat for an hour or so), but my breasts are still very sore and my (again tmi, sorry ladies) nipples are larger and darker, even dp has noticed.

So am I holding on to all these things as positive signs. And the fact that I am having no cramps or any "proper" bleeding. I still don't think a scan will help, I am going to try and wait it out as my m/w suggested.

Thanks again for being lovely.

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TheNextMrsDepp · 30/06/2010 22:40

Rocklover, I think you are right to put off the scan until 12 weeks. I know it is horrible having to "wait and see" but you really have no choice but to see what nature throws at you. What will be will be.....

But you do seem to have lots of positive signs, so hold onto that, try to relax, and not stress too much. I have my fingers firmly crossed for you - hopefully in a few months all this worry will be forgotten.

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Rocklover · 01/07/2010 09:44

Thanks Mrs Depp. I am not doing much (which is helping me put on weight grrrr) and resting as much as I can, not sure if it helps but it makes me feel better.

I am hardly spotting at all today and the nausea has stepped up again, plus I have had horrendous heartburn since last night. I am trying not to worry, but of course I am stressed and my poor 5 y/o dd is getting snapped at constantly by me because my moods swing drastically.

My goal today is to relax, calm down and make sure I have some proper cuddly time with dd after school.

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