hello everyone, i'm a regular on this board but have name changed. i'm having a really dark day and looking for some support. i'm currently 7 weeks 4 days preg after four miscarriages in a row. all my miscarriages have happened between seven and nine weeks.
i had a good scan earlier this week which showed a heartbeat and felt elated immediately afterwards but have now totally emotionally crashed again and am full of the usual terror of it all going wrong again. (last time we had a heartbeat and the pregnancy still failed about a week later.)
this time there is some hope that things will be different in that i am on steroids and clexane and aspirin, but almost all my blood tests were normal so the medication is experimental. i am trying so hard to be positive but i'm finding it really impossible. i feel totally traumatised by my four miscarriages and wonder how i could possibly cope with a fifth. i have managed to hold myself together through two years of this hell, barely taking any time off from work and putting on a really brave face, but i feel near breaking point.