I am not coping with mc fatigue

[mermaidspurse]

It all just came to a head in the fatface changing room stuck inside a size 14 floaty shirt.
I had an erpc on the 6th May and it was my 6th mc. I haven't cried until now and now of course I can't stop.

We are going on holiday ,yes great I can sit on a beach and do nothing but my poor body looks so neglected, nothing fits and everything is just bloody wrong.

This morning I got a letter requesting my full medical notes for a car accident last year. The thought of all the faceless people who are going to have to paw through 6mc and the depression issues has really upset me, more than I could have imagined. I don't want anyone to see it all, I feel so naked, does that sound mad? And am so worried that they will dismiss my claim albeit it only small and nothing really major because it was a week after a mc that I had the accident. I told my insurers at the time because I had to, but now it is going through the legal system.

I usually sort of manage and scrape myself back together again but I feel so flat. Dh feel so bad as he feels that he has let me down because I am seeing a councellor and they want to put me on ads which scares both of us.
Stupid floaty shirt. Just tell me they skimp on the fabric and I'll pull myself back together.

sorry it has a subject now

Fatface def skimp on fabric

I'm lurking on MN at the moment so wanted to send you a quick (albeit useless) reply just to say you're not alone.

I'm on my first - and Fx last - MMC with twins. I can't imagine how you must be feeling after having 6MC but reading your story also immediately made me think although you probably don't feel it right now that you are a woman of courage.

Counselling/AD/whatever it takes to get you through this time. There are no rules. It's okay to feel scared.

The car stuff sucks - I remember fighting with insurance without being in the midst of MC fatigue so my heart goes out to you. It doesn't matter what others think although I guess you know that and despite this you'll still feel exposed. Negative opinions of strangers don't count - only the ones that make you feel hugged!

No rules. Just look after yourself for now XX

They definitely do scrimp on the fabric. I heard from a friend, who had a friend who's cousin used to work there, that they only use half the material that they used to in those floaty shirts.

On a serious note, I'm so sorry you're feeling this way. And I am very sorry for all of your losses, I don't think anyone should have to go through that six times.

I can't see how they would be able to dismiss your claim. I am sure everything will work out o.k on that score.

I don't really know what to say about the reading of your notes though. That sounds like it would feel like a total invasion of your privacy, and I can understand why it would make you feel upset. But those faceless people will remain faceless people to you, you will never have to socialise with them, if that makes sense.

Thinking of you.

oh crap mermaids - i TOTALLY know how you feel. as if the utter misery of miscarriage after miscarriage after miscarriage isn't bad enough, you have to feel fat and flabby afterwards too. and because you're feeling so miserable you don't exactly want to deprive yourself of a slice of cake and a glass or two of wine at this point...and then you feel fatter and flabbier and even more miserable. it's a vicious circle. go easy on yourself for a little while until you have recovered from the shock of miscarriage no6 (not that you ever recover as such...) and please try not to worry about your figure for the time being. you can sort that out later. it's amazing how quickly you can get into shape when you're ready...

Thank god for that they skimp, thank you girls

mummymckt I am sorry that you too are lurking here. No rules that is so true and the control freak in me has neglected that thank you.

youremindmeofthebabe yes I guess they are faceless people thanks lovely.

kissmummy you hit the nail on the head with the vicious cycle of it all.