Scared of periods starting again.

[SnotBaby]

Warning, this could get a bit "TMI"

I had DC2 last summer and bled quite a lot afterwards (c section) and became anaemic, it was a blight on an otherwise happy time.

Prior to that I had a late miscarriage at about 15 weeks which was naturally managed at home, as I had thought I was only 12 weeks. There was a lot of blood. I had 2 infections and a d&c in the month that followed, just non-stop horrors.

DC1 was also a c-section and I had a massive very frightening bleed about 8 weeks after the birth, managed to dodge hospital, just!

I have spent so much time over the last few years dreading trips to the loo for fear of what I might see. I am not normally squeamish about blood at all.

Now that DC2 is beginning to wean I expect my period to start up any day now, and I am really frightened of it, frankly. Bleeding from there has so many horrible associations for me now, and it has been wonderful having some time off from it.

I am really worried that I might faint or something when it starts again. Has anyone else felt like this?

Feels better just to get it off my chest, TBH.

I think that maybe you should go to your GP and ask to be referred to a counsellor or someone who can help you debrief the births and discuss why you feel like this. It does sound as though you need some help coming to terms with what happened and obviously the bleeding will have very sad memories for you.

Your periods starting again should be okay but becasue of the other big bleed at 8 weeks postnatal, it's no wonder you're worried. Remember that even once they start again, they might take a good while to sort themsleves out into a normal pattern.
I have to say that after a natural birth, mine have been far heavier than after my c-s with first baby.
You might be surprised!
Hope it all goes okay.